Maintaining Order

Man, some days can be trying. I thought I handled things pretty well while the owner was gone for a few days due to a small injury and I feel like I made things worse. Well, at least that was how I was made to feel cause I know I kept things as orderly as possible with all our invoices and what not, but the owner can be very unorderly and tend to lose things within the piles of paper covering her desk! And that's not exaggering either, there are literally piles of paper and notes all over the desk and I even get frustrated when I can't find something I'm looking for. So when something is missing I almost feel like I'm to blame for it, although there's no logical reason for me to feel this way cause it's not my fault. And for the last few days we were all looking for her keys and they were nowhere to be found. lol

Yesterday I was a little upset about an incident concerning using her computer. I needed to use her computer to find the file that she uses to type up quotes to fax to other vendors, and when she got wind of it from her son who works here that I was using her computer, she got all upset and went on about it's against the law to use her computer cause there's files on there I shouldn't be looking at and I'm like 'I just needed to type a simple letter for quoting'...geeez. I'm not here to snoop around and would never do that, but when you're doing your best to keep the business going and instead of being commended you get the third degree I almost feel like saying why even bother...it makes me feel kind of untrusted and almost worthless to her. If that's how you feel Mrs. O then hire someone else then honestly. Anyhow, I usually don't rant and rave about work here but I just needed to get these things off my chest. It actually helps to put it in writing although very cautiously.

Although it can be trying here, I try to stay positive and examine myself to see if there's something I might be doing that is confusing or questioning in my actions. If I'm doing things right however I know and God knows I'm doing things right or at least to the best of my ability. So I don't worry too much about it.

Well I hope tonight's class for Ethics is a little more interesting than the previous three. It's just that the prof doesn't really lecture...at all. He just sits with us and goes over the homework. I mean that's great but not for the whole 4 hrs! It's nice to here him lecture about things we don't know, about things that are interesting to here and what not. Usually every prof does it that way, and there's a balance to it. No other prof has just gone over the homework the whole time. It's almost as if he wants to here more from us than he wants to lecture to us...hmmm...anyhow I hope it's interesting. =)