Today is one of the first Saturdays I’ve had off in a long time since I started working at Pizza Hut Part-Time at nights. My manager called this morning and asked me if I’d like to take today off, so I told him ‘yes’ so I can take a break from driving down there as well and save some gas! In fact, I might start working there only once a week now because at SignsNow my boss needs more help, since it’s only the two of us working now. There’s not enough work at this point to have more than us working right now. In the near future, however, if the workload picks up, then we’ll go ahead and hire another designer. So from this week on, I’ll be working mainly at SignsNow again and one day at the Hut, which actually takes a load off of me, cause I was closing Tues – Saturday and I would hardly get any sleep at night during the week, which was bad, I know. So this helps mucho! And praise God, my boss even offered to give me a raise to compensate for the extra money I’m making at the Hut! That was so awesome that he even offered to do that for me, so praise the Lord for giving me such a generous boss! Well, hopefully things will pick up there so I won’t have to move on anywhere else, at least for awhile.
I really started working PT mainly to pay off all my medical and credit card debt, and it’s getting paid slowly but surely. It just seems like forever right now. lol And yes, the drive can take it’s toll on me in several ways: more gas, toll road fees, and just being on the road a lot driving to and fro. But my goal is to eventually make my move down in that area someday soon so the drive isn’t too far. And if in fact my boss ends up closing the store, most likely I’ll be looking for a job down in that area again, because for one, I’ll still be working that the Hut, so I’ll have a little income coming in for a bit. But honestly, I just like it down there, where it’s a bit cooler.
Other than working, I haven’t had a lot of time to do much else, but now I will have time again to work on some personal designs again and get more involved in ministry as before. I miss having that fellowship with the body, and I can feel that that’s been missing in my life. I’ve been thinking of some new concepts lately for shirts and another project I might start (sort of a series of digital paintings that I thought about even marketing), but the Lord will reveal whether or not they will be worth investing into. I found that there are times when I think of some great idea, and either it will just be ‘chaff in the wind’ or it will indeed come to pass and bless others. So when that happens, I lift it up in prayer and just ask the Lord to guide it and reveal whether it’s a great idea to pursue. And even if it blesses just even a few people, I think it’s all worth it! Cause maybe just those few needed to be blessed or touched in some way by the gift He’s given me, so who am I to judge whether I really did anything with a certain idea or project. I might start some project and get a few shirts printed or what not and feel like I didn’t have much impact, but behind the scenes I might have touched lives in an incredible way or made it possible for others to be a witness with those designs, so I just trust that the Lord is doing the work through me, whether big or small, and I don’t worry about it.
I remember one day I was selling my shirts at the swap meet in Chino, and the whole day I didn’t sell one thing! And it was hot that day and almost kind of miserable sitting there. And I remember being sooo bummed by the fact that I didn’t have any customers that day, just a few passerbys looking and going their way. But now that I look back, just because I didn’t sell a thing, doesn’t mean I didn’t have any impact at all. Was it a failure because I didn’t sell anything? It was in most people’s eyes I suppose. But as a believer, how do I know if I didn’t have any impact in someone’s life, someone who was the messages, someone who was searching for truth, someone who was down and found hope in the message on the shirts, someone who was inspired by the designs, someone who’s spirit was lifted up when we gave them a smile. I mean seriously, I could have impacted more lives than I could ever know, and the Lord could have had me there on that specific day to make a different impact in people’s lives – a spiritual, meaningful impact, which really is more impactful than making a few dollars. Where’s my heart? Am I more concerned with making an investment through my shirts, or making an investment in someone’s spiritual life? Sure I want Onoma to succeed so I can impact more people in more places, but I also know that my heart needs to be in the right place as well, cause when it is, I’ll become more excited about sharing the gospel and investing in someone’s personal life, than I will making a few dollars and counting my money at home. If it’s God’s will to be there, He will put me there and He will make the business flourish…but in His way. Cause as His Word says: “My ways are higher than your ways, and my thoughts higher than yours.” If that’s true, then I just need to trust in Him when he does it His way, and not mine, cause His ways are better than mine, and hopefully I will find out what I temporarily don’t understand on that Day when I’m with Him.
Anyhow, so tonite I finally found some time to sit down and write and reflect on all these things. Right now I’m just sitting by the fountain in the courtyard of my church with my laptop here. It’s actually really nice at this moment, nice and cool. It’s going to get dark in about 10 minutes or so, so I’ll end it here. Tomorrow I’ll probably take Isaiah to go see Wall*e. Him and me have been waiting for it to come out and go see it! This is one of those movies that would be nice to see on the big screen, with all the special effects and all. Sometimes I’ll just wait for other movies to come out on video, more of the dramas and such that really don’t have much impact whether at the movies or at home, not that way anyways, but more of a nice story that would be nicer to see at home where I can relax better…and eat for free! lol =)
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