Truly one moment at a time

The last few days has truly been hard and trying, and I've literally been living one breath at a time, hoping the next will ease some pain. It's been a rollercoaster of sorrow, so I pray constantly. It helps to know that we're not alone when we're grieving though...I found a site that has helped some during this time. It's at http://catchanangel.com/poems.html. Again, hearing the stories of other believers and their own walk through trials can help tremendously in the way of healing and understanding and hope. There's nothing more awful than not seeing any hope and being completely perplexed by our situations. I remember being in complete agony when my exwife left me one day. It still gets me emotional when I share this, because the affect it had on me was one of being completely rejected, which didn't help since I struggled with that issue already. For the next two weeks I was literally crying to God on my knees for understanding, for help, for comfort and for my wife back. Help didn't come for a couple weeks when a brother brought some understanding to my situation, and from there the load was finally being lifted, and hope was filling my heart. Yet she still left me, because of the issues I had with anger, which stemmed from past issues of rejection and holding things in all the time. I would hold it all in until they finally came out exploding! During my own dark days I realized that the Lord was indeed with me, but as a loving Father who wanted me to learn some important lessons in life, and He knew what I needed at that time. It's true that He only wants the best for us, to work all things together for good, and sometimes that requires some 'molding' that's not going to feel very good at the time, but produces His peace in the end if we allow Him to intervene in or lives. =)